Did Ironman really happen?
Why does life go by so fast?
Where did Summer go?
What day is it?
Oh sorry, didn’t mean to bring you along on the ridiculous journey that is my normal train of thought. Lately, everything seems like A HUGE DEAL. I don’t have one big thing to focus my energy on, so instead I focus on EVERY TINY LITTLE DETAIL. I still feel a little like grumpy cat.
Does anyone else need a fitness-related goal at all times? Without one, I tend to just say “to hell with it” and jump off into the deep end. A deep end filled with candy corn and laziness. Now, over the past couple years I’ve learned that it’s harder to justify being lazy than actually getting out there and doing something. The negative self-talk isn’t worth the headache. So, I do stuff. I move. I lift some heavy things. But lately, not enough. Sometimes just enough to say “okay, I worked out today.” But right now, I’m kind of like that person who shows up to spinning class 10 minutes late, spends 5 minutes setting up the bike, warms up for 10 minutes, and then leaves early. That person thinks they just took a spinning class. They did not just take a spinning class.
So, I’m working at it. I do have goals; I’m running the NYC Marathon and a few races in between. Mystery injury seems to have disappeared. (KNOCK ON WOOD. EVERYONE. ALL OF YOU. RIGHT NOW.) I ran 14 miles from Queens to Central Park and back on Saturday. I did speedwork again last night and survived. Besides a super tight IT band (which is a little concerning but I’m foam rolling the crap out of it), I’m feeling better. Still slow, but I’m working at it.
(Oh did you want to look at my lame splits? 10X400m in 2:09 was the workout. Rest intervals were supposed to be 90 seconds, but I based them off distance for the most part. So I was way off. A lot.)
(Can you even understand that? Wow those distances/splits were so all over the place. Mind you, there were some hills in there. So there’s that.)
Anyway, back to my babbling. I think all this nonsensical overthinking stems from the simple fact that I’ve been eating whatever I want over the past month and I feel crappy about myself. Maybe I don’t need a fitness goal…maybe I need a new “overall health” goal. It’s so obvious that what goes into your body really affects every aspect of “you”. I mean, it makes sense. The body is like a machine. Take care of it, and it will take care of you. Cliche but true. Therefore, it goes without saying that I seriously need to get in gear with my nutrition. (Yeah, I said it anyway.) But how do you quantify and measure that?
Now, I know what people are going to say. You deserve it! You can eat whatever you want for the rest of your life! And I can giggle at that statement. It’s funny. I get it. Lots of calories were burned. IMLP consisted of an obnoxious amount of miles; even saying the distances out loud was a mouthful.
But it’s certainly not true. It doesn’t justify eating every bagel and every piece of candy corn in existence. (Are you picking up on the candy corn theme? It’s FALL!)
It’s only been a month and I’m already a couple pounds heavier and a little more pissed off. I’ve gained weight in training for the two marathons I’ve run. It’s begun again. WHY? Obviously I’m doing something wrong. I need to increase my calorie burning capacity and gain more muscle. I need to stop eating processed anything. I KNOW this stuff…but I need to actually stick to it.
So where is this coming from, you may be wondering. There must have been a trigger, right? Right. Recently, a coworker asked me, “what’s the best move to get rid of flabby arms?”…and my response was “It’s diet. You can’t out-train a bad diet”. Now, not diet as in “go buy a book and follow the plan and count every single bite, lick, and taste that touches your lips”, but diet as in “what you eat from day to day”.
I started thinking…who am I to talk?! My diet kind of sucks. I know what to eat, but I don’t always do it. And I don’t track what I eat. I should. Especially if I’m complaning about it.
Furthermore, during Ironman training I kept thinking about how I wanted to stop fueling with, well, crap. Sugary gels, processed foods, fruit snack things that have no fruit in them…bad. Bad. Bad. But of course, I didn’t want to switch up my fueling in the middle of the season. I found something that, although not the healthiest, worked for me. But now, I want to make the change. I want to focus on REAL food.
I semi-started during IM training with Honey Stinger’s Honey Waffles. They have all organic ingredients, but still, I’m a little weary of anything that comes in a package with a barcode. Don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely obsessed with them and find myself eating them as snacks sans workout more often than I would like to admit. Are they “clean”? I don’t know. Probably not. Some of the ingredients I need to do more research on. Organic palm fruit oil. Organic rice syrup. Organic soy flour. Organic soy lecithin. Sure, organic is great, but it doesn’t always mean safe and healthy. Honestly, I’m probably not going to give these up. But things like Gu need to go.
I did find a recipe for homemade “Gu” via my friends at Finish Line PT, so I plan to try that out ASAP. It better taste good, or else I’m just not sure what I’ll do. THE HORROR.
And that’s the end of this rambling post. Anyone have a suggestion for more natural fuel? I need the energy, I need it to not upset my stomach, and I need it to contain healthy ingredients. Ready…share! How do you fuel? Do you try to “eat clean”?
P.S. Send my Dad a congratulations for finishing his big ride this past weekend! Go Dad!